Monday, September 21, 2009 @ 6:41 PM

Finally shifted, after 4years going 5years of blogging @ blogger! :)
This blog will still be kept for memories.
And I might be shifting back in future. :-)

http://onmyknees.tumblr.com

Saturday, September 19, 2009 @ 6:04 PM

The major papers are starting in less than 2weeks.
I need to be more disciplined in order to advance to Sec5 :/

I need motivation :(

Friday, September 18, 2009 @ 6:10 PM

School was hectic today.
I feel so stressful and I really wish to take a break :(

Stayed back after school with Brandon &Chunteck for history's consultation. Am glad that I went for the consultation. :) Waited for Lixian and bus-ed home after that. I'm really relieved that it's finally the weekends.. I need to replenish my sleep :(


It's the 18th of the month once again..
Few people talked to me about A today. They asked if there's still chances between A and I.. And I actually replied that I'd never want to get back with him again no matter what happens.. Because I really can't imagine myself being in such a pathetic state again.. And in fact I no longer dare to get into a relationship because I no longer have faith in love.. Now I finally realised how insignificant I am to him, and the things I've done were never appreciated. I'm just someone to fulfil his materialistic needs. :')

Wednesday, September 16, 2009 @ 4:54 PM

To the four of you,
Though I've lost someone I'd never want to lose in life, but I'm glad that I've got awesome girlfriends around me. Thanks for standing by me throughout this 1month plus, and during the darkest point of my life. I'm really thankful. :) The four of you are irreplaceable <3

To you,
We're just like strangers now. But I guess this is the best outcome between us.. Every single day I was hoping that I could bump into you coincidentally in school, and hoping that 1day you'd smile at me like before. Whenever I receive a message, I would hope that it's from you, though I know that you never would take the initiative to message me. I don't want us to land up in this state.. Even though I know you'd hurt me if we get back together 1day but I still miss you being in my life..

Tuesday, September 15, 2009 @ 5:11 PM

I've really sadistic girlfriends!!

I was telling them about some stuffs that happened last night. And all of them laughed at me and even cheered :( But nevermind, I still love the four of you to the max ^^ After school went for lunch @ macs with Ziyu, bus-ed home after that :)


Thanks for being so frank. At least I know that I no longer stand a chance now... I don't wna fight for us and hang on anymore. Your heart had left me since a year ago. No matter how much I've done, I'd still be someone redundant in your life. I'll be fine, and I gotta get through this. All the best to you.. I love you...

Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 4:04 PM

All the best for your paper tomorrow..
I believe you'll be able to do well. :)
xoxo


You've fallen for someone else, isn't it?..

Sunday, September 13, 2009 @ 4:52 AM

I realised I haven't been genuinely happy for a very long time..
I miss you trying ways and means to bring back the smile on my face..

Many people said you'll be happy as long as the one you love is happy too. But why don't I feel happy when I see you being happier without me? Why do I feel my heart aching when I see you being happier?

Seeing you online yet I can only stare blankly at the screen, hoping that you would take the initiative to talk to me.. But you did not, and in the end, you went offline.

These few days, I've been controlling myself not to text you. I succeeded. But I never fail to cry whenever I look back at the messages and pictures. It brings back bits and pieces of our memories..

I miss you, have you ever missed me too?

@ 1:35 AM

Last evening was meeting up with the 2 tall guys @ town.
I'm so sorry for being so late.

Met Edward &Shawn outside Ion. Took a really long time to get there because I couldn't find the right exit. Headed to Fareast after that and we had dinner @ Carls Jr. Then we walked around town to get the stuffs both of them wanted.

After that was taking a train down to Marina Bay. Initially we wanted to take a cab down to Marina Barrage, but there weren't any cabs at all. So we took a bus there in the end. There was some Ben &Jerry's chunk fest there so I had ice cream :)

The ambience there was awesome. But yeah I thought of alot of things as well cos I remembered his promise of bringing me there when he's free.. But he left me before he could fulfil his promise.. At that point of time I wanted to text him so badly.. But I still controlled myself in the end..

Cabbed home with the guys after that. Thanks for today guys.
Till then!